The heart has died and the tongue has become silent.
The soul no longer screams and eyes no longer shed tears.
The more I run after the world, the more it crumbles around me.
I have come to you, Ya Allah, to find you waiting for me.
I have come with eyes filled with hope,
with hands raised to you, with words begging for mercy
and with a soul that can’t live without you.
Don’t let me go empty handed because i know not a world without you.
My life is a love story.
Of how I met you.
One day I opened my eyes to this world, lost and confused.
My heart told me that I was searching for something.
My soul cried for some feeling.
I had to fill an empty hole in me.
I looked to my parents to find an emptiness in the warmest of hugs.
I loved my friends to obsession, to find they did not care about me.
I looked to men for an attachment, to find they were too fickle.
I stumbled, I fell, I hurt myself but I did know not what that was that I searched for.
Years, months, weeks, days went by until one day some peculiar feeling rose in my heart.
I don’t know why but I fell in sujood and I felt like I had found a missing piece of me.
You made me find you when I did not even know what that was that I searched for.
I have lost you again. But this time I know what I am looking for,
so wouldn’t you let me find you?
By Amber Juman